After being single for four years, it was comforting having someone around. He was the first person to talk to when I got up, and the last person to talk to before I went to bed. He was someone to go out to different restaurants with, someone to watch new movies with, and someone to confide in.

Looking back on this year, it's been a big blur for me. Last year this time of year, I was coming back from Chicago. He picked me up from the airport and we enjoyed a Christmas dinner and exchanged gifts. Now it's been a full year, and things are definitely different.

I know I made the right choice. Deep down inside, I know I did. But it doesn't make it any easier for me to cope with. And I guess it's only normal to feel like you want somebody around during the holidays.

It’s been over two months since the break-up, but the emotions are still very raw in my heart.

SUCK IT UP EDNA!!

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Sometimes I sit down and think… Why certain things are the way they are

As I contemplate, my heart starts to sink… And it makes me want to go to a bar

What is it that saddens me so… And why does it cause me so much pain

How can it make me feel so low...Enough to make people think I'm insane

But it can also make me feel great… And I can't express how happy I feel

All I can say is that I think it is fate… And to the haters, it is the real deal

I know you may be wondering what it could be...That could cause my heart to feel this way

And many people cannot fathom or see… But it doesn't matter to me what they say

Now I shall reveal the love of my life… The one thing that has kept me going

And though it has caused me some strife… I know that my passion will continue flowing

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The Lakers baby!!!!!!!! =D